It’s about a month away. Wtf? Where did this year go? It was summer yesterday pretty much.
Un-rachet this world or at least reduce it
I’m good at letting things go physically but emotionally—still working on it.
Damn it. I miss him.
He enjoys the fact that he has someone who listens to him. Yet, he doesn’t bother to ask about me or listen. From my perspective we’re experiencing an imbalance, but I’m quite sure he doesn’t see that. How unfortunate to see myself losing interest and gaining feelings of repulsiveness and indifference.
When stubborn meets stubborn, we are nothing but egotistical, prideful assholes.
Power trips. Trips on power. Losing control. Control all lost. Now bowing down to that power.
Why do I attract people with intense personalities into my life especially those whom I consider close or best friends? There has been a similar pattern with all the “best” friends I’ve had—particularly a savior/victim type of relationship. I’ve learned significantly from them and the dynamics of our friendship as it evolved, but I need to be honest: where are the least chaotic people? I’m so tired and quite irritated because of problems they’ve had that seems to encompass the same themes—abusiveness, severe insecurities, self-infliction. Wtf?
False alarm. I’m not over you. It’s been well over a year, and still I think of you. I pretended for a while that I was fine without you. You can only pretend for so long until you realize and accept the truth. I’ve tried dating after you but only find myself comparing them to you. So far, they’ve got nothing on you. No one ever will.